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Alone: On Being Human

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  Does God remember me? Dust to dust. Breathe to breathe. I am God’s creation. I think. Does God remember me?   Truth was close. I could feel it. Now, I don’t believe it was ever close at all. Maybe I want to. Maybe I don’t. Truth has always been a liar.   Shots changed […]

Bedtime Prayer

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  Throughout my childhood, I often spent the night at my grandparent’s house. I loved them very much. I didn’t love the way they put us to bed. After we were tucked into our beds, my grandmother would close her eyes and say,   “Now I lay me down to sleep. I pray the Lord […]

#10 / Jonestown Theology: Lenten Explorations in the Valley of Death

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God is never lost. In the midst of great evil, God is there. I have long wondered how Jonestown fits into such ideas. In the 1970s, Rev. Jim Jones and the Peoples Temple founded the settlement in the jungles of Guyana. After a few years of communal living, Jones led his followers to commit a […]

The Darkness is Us

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  “You are the light of the world.” -Matt. 5:14   Late last night, we arrived home from a long trip. When we entered the house, everything was dark. With hands full of luggage, I tried to turn the light on. After a few missed attempts, my son started to get scared. My hands were […]

On Hope: Conversations with a Disciple

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  *Christian Parks is accompanying me again this summer. Throughout our time together, we will post brief snippets of our conversations.   J: How do you move forward?   C: I pass through lament and anger. I look injustice and hatred in the eye and declare there is another way. I look into myself and […]

Zimbabwe Sleeping

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The darkness brought fear Peril filled my dreams Would they come for us? Who can say? The dogs barked My eyes shot open Murmurs from my hosts Was it our time? Who can say? We were followed Are they here? Who can say? The happenings cycle What was that noise? What do they sound like? […]

Standing in the Need of Prayer

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What happened? What was that? I felt something. It was more than something. It felt like a kick in the soul. I am overwhelmed. The blades turn. The dim lights interrupt the dark of this cold night. In the tiniest space I have ever been forced into…something happened. The final instructions come in from the […]

A Cosmology of Darkness

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  The darkness was. The darkness is. The darkness will be. The darkness is God.   The voice of all voices calls to us. Staring past the stars. The heavens speak and we hear. The abyss reminds us.   The deeper we go. The closer we are drawn. In the darkness is infinity. Eternity is […]

From the Southern Baptist Theological Seminary to Queer

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  “What man doesn’t wonder about what it would be like to have sex with a man?” While dining at Cracker Barrel late one night, I asked the question of a friend. Before I could even begin to muse about my own question, Don Fulton looked at me in my eyes and declared, “I’m gay.” […]

The Darkness: A Meditation

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  In the stillness of the night, you know me. The mist reminds me. Though the mind might wander, you remain steady in the nothing that is everything. The absence of light paints a glorious portrait of mystery. The crickets speak the word. In the echoes of yesterday and tomorrow, you speak of today. The […]

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